I started small, at 24″ x 24″, trying to incorporate my audiology test results, and wave forms of a few Carl Sandburg poems, along with trying new colours, getting bold in mixing. It felt like I was trying to be too literal, trying to force data into a small envelope, so I do have mixed feelings about the results so far. I feel as though I might have been trying too hard. Meanwhile, I had emotions bubbling from beneath the surface, threatening my laid back approach to problem solving.
I don’t like confrontation, and I think that’s part of the problem I’m having with these paintings. I find myself confronted with conflicting emotions, and I am ill at ease with them. It’s not a bad thing, but it’s an uncharted territory for me.
The paintings are still in the works, but they’re at the stage where I could put them aside for now while I move onto the bigger pieces, the 36″ x 36″ pieces. I had gessoed one piece already, but I’ll need to gesso the other three this weekend, so it’s ready for next week as well.
The first of the 36″ x 36″ made me happy. Perhaps the size is giving me the freedom to move around some more? Maybe the Indian Yellow underpainting is lifting my mood? Or maybe I’ve done away with the threshold line, and have told myself that there are no restrictions now.
I don’t know. I do know that 24″ x 24″ seems so small now.
We acknowledge the support of the Canada Council for the Arts, which last year invested $153 million to bring the arts to Canadians throughout the country.
Nous remercions le Conseil des arts du Canada de son soutien. L’an dernier, le Conseil a investi 153 millions de dollars pour mettre de l’art dans la vie des Canadiennes et des Canadiens de tout le pays.
Published March 4, 2016